What you expect, is not always the outcome

What I am about to write will maybe be a surprise to many. When I titled this what you expect is not always the outcome is because so many times in life we go through situations that we thought would play out differently. Back last year in the month of May 2013 my husband and I found out that I was pregnant. During that time my sister was getting married in Cancun, Mexico. So off I went to Mexico to share a special day with her and the family. Either way while there I started feeling some very sharp pains, they were excruciating. These pains would come and go, I had no idea what they could be. When I got back home I had my 8 week appointment, we were going to be looking for the heartbeat of my baby. Once at the doctors office she started looking and could not hear anything, since I was not sure on my last menstrual cycle date, she told me come back in two weeks. So I did, I went back again in two weeks and this time my oldest sister went with me, since my husband had to work. The doctor started to listen for the heart beat and nothing...
She then did an ultrasound and nothing. (Silence grew louder and louder in the room) I already knew what words were coming next as my eyes started to fill with water. I look at my sister as her eyes fill up with tears as well. Then the doctor says"I am sorry, I will give you some time" and she walked out of the room. All I remember at that point is God you know best and my child will be with you in Heaven. My sister turns and tells me "your baby is now in heaven." Honestly this was one of the most difficult things after my mom's breast cancer that I have had to face. I did not want to talk to anyone. When I got home I spoke with my husband and we both just sat in silence for a while. He was so supportive given the fact that he to was in pain about the situation. We prayed and asked God for enlightenment and support during this time. I prayed and prayed stronger than ever before, and wanted to just feel the love of God. As a testimony to share in my prayers that were in moments where I was alone and at the latest of nights, I just asked "God please I just need a hug from you" I knew God heard every one of my prayers, however it took months before He answered my prayer. As time passed Ray and I were able to try to get pregnant again, so in the month of October I found out I was pregnant,  I was already at least 6 weeks.
we had our first appointment everything went well. And every other appointment from there on out just got better. Then in the month of November God answers my prayer at a women's church retreat. I was being prayed for when God uses one of the ministers to pray for me and uses the minister to talk to me and say, "you have been asking for a hug and you have been humble and have come to me, here is your hug." Honestly I have never had an experience like that in all my life. As a believer it was such a huge spiritual boost for me. I knew then and there, that no matter what can be going on as long as I put everything in the Lord's hands He will provide. The sadness that I had felt about the loss of my first child suddenly became as a positive situation in my life. True it was hard to know that I lost a child, but this situation resulted in me getting closer to God. He then blessed me and my husband with another pregnancy and a wonderful one at that.  My son Ray Antoni was born
June 2,2014 he has been such a blessing and has brought us so much happiness. I do from time to time think of my baby that I lost and remember how God was in front of that situation from the beginning. Then all I can do is give Him thanks!

The day our son was born, was such a miracle and blessing to our lives. I just held him so close as soon as he came. A little about my labor, i was in labor for 20 hours and pushed for 2 1/2 hours and naturally had our son. One of the best and proudest days ever in my life. I saw my husband shed some tears for the very first time. Happy tears i must add and we were all just rejoiced with this gift from God.

Everyday is a special day with my little one, and now I get to enjoy him all the time since I now get to be a stay at home mom!

Moving

This has been a long time waiting, it has been forever since I last blogged. 

To begin with life always has its ups and downs and I have not blogged for numerous reasons.

1. Time

2.  Laziness

3. Lack of Internet

4. Computer is broken

These are just a few reasons...

Recently my husband and I have forgone many transitional stages in our almost two years of marriage. We have moved just a total of 4 times in one year, has been seriously stressful and tiring. We now have finally another apartment and will be here for a year. 

Now I will share with you all, how all this started. During the month of September my husband and I were in the process of looking for a home, we started the whole process. Well we were then told that it was not going to be possible for us to buy a home yet (I was very frustrated and sad about this at the time) We had moved in with my sister from our previous apartment since our lease was up, and we were only going to be there a couple of months, since we were planning on purchasing. Either way that fell through, so now we were stuck at my sisters house and in the looks for another rental property.

when we then find out that we are PREGNANT! Yes pregnant I was thrilled about it and so was Ray. Yet the thought of not having our own home made me sad again. Well my husband trying to be there for me and make me happy was looking all over to find a place for us to move into. Across the street from my sisters house was a tiny little three bedroom home which needed a whole whole lot of work. However my husband being so determined on us leaving asked the owner if we could rent it out. The owner said yes, well before we could even move in, the place had to be painted, cleaned out, and fixed. My husband did just that mind you the month is now February when he is fixing it. It was cold and the heat was not on yet and he would work till midnight. By this time I am already 5 months pregnant and of coarse my hormones are out of whack, I am an emotional wreck! 

Here are a few picks of the before and after:

We worked hard to get this place somewhat in livable conditions. Well as the months started passing by, it started getting warmer outside and I started to notice little things here and there. An example of this was every time i would come home from work there would be wasps inside the house. Where they came from I have no idea. Now another thing was there were constantly bugs constantly bugs coming. I got so sick of, and told Ray that we could not stay here especially with a baby on the way it just is not going to happen.

so by the month of May again we start looking for another place, when we found where we are at right now. The crazy part is that i was set to be due June 14th. We were to move in June 4th this was crazy! Either way we said "ok let's do it."

Surprise Surprise, I had my Antoni June 2nd he came about two weeks early. My husband basically moved everything that week of our baby being born. It was so stressful. That i will talk about another time though. I now just want to say that I am so thankful to God that we have a place to live and is way better than the place we were at before. I would also like to say if there are grammatical and spelling errors I am sorry, I wrote this post through my phone. I still have no computer.

Outfits!!!

This Friday my husband and I decided we would go out for a casual night out for dinner: I wore some skinny jeans with brown tall flat boots, and a floral print shirt with grey cardigan, I layered with a blue/gold scarf,and a long necklace.
The results my hubby liked!

Casual outfit: Could also be worn for work.

Journey of Fitness

After I got married in August, I have realized that I started to gain weight. Now I know many times we hear that you get comfortable with your significant other, and well in my case I believe this to be the truth. Either way I decided about a month ago, that I had just gained to much weight in a matter of like 5 months..."Can Not be Possible, I told myself!" Matter of the fact is, it's the truth. So I've decided to start exercising again. So for the past three weeks I have started my journey, It has been crazy hard to get motivated after work and work out,but it has to get done. I need to get back in shape, and that is what I plan on doing.

Week 1: I started out by just first doing some Cardio Zumba here inside the home, too cold to go outside for me, so no motivation there what so ever.
So I would do my zumba, and then after that do some crunches at least 30

Week 2: I started out jogging and walking around the neighborhood
             Then on like the 3rd day of week 2 I would jog and walk around neighborhood,and then run up the flights of stairs, my goal for the end of that week was to run up those stairs 6X!
       Saturday of that week, that is exactly what I did, I jogged and walked mostly walked to save my energy for the stairs, but I ran up those stairs 6X!
This was my reaction "DEEP BREATHING AND GASPING!" I was exhausted...

Week 3: I've jogged and kept with the jogging up the stairs.
  Then I had the opportunity to go out with my husband to a park nearby and we walked a mile together,which was nice because it was a moment where we were also able to talk and just have some quality time together which is so important.  Then we jogged the mile of course we went at different speeds, but that is OK, we still got the job done!

Week 4: This week I started working out on Monday
Monday: I did my ab work out through ZUMBA
Tuesday: Ab work out through ZUMBA
Wednesday: 30 min. Zumba Cardio, 20 P lie squats, 20 Donkey kicks on each side, 20 Fire Hydrants.
Thursday: 1 hour of Zumba Sculpt and Tone work out = Sweat all over my face!!
Friday: Kind of a day off, I did only 10 min. work out, but I started my 7 day cleansing today.
Saturday: Zumba Work Out, and cleanse.

My goal for end of the week is to go through the whole Brazilian butt work out!
BUNS OF STEEL that's pretty much what I am going for HAHAHA!
http://thehautebunny.wordpress.com/2012/05/08/brazilian-butt-workout/

Finished Mural

OK so I had been working on a mural for a while now. It took almost a month just because of my work schedule lately. Thankfully though I finished it up on Saturday. After spending about two hours a day for a total of 7 day's probably. I was able to create an African themed silhouette mural.

The color of the walls were painted in a soft yellow, and the mural was painted in a chocolate brown.
After getting the approval and critique from fellow artists and art professors, I am proud to say that it turned out and was a success, I am very excited!

Please keep following me and my updates, and all the other nifty paintings and crafts that I plan to make. And remember if you are ever in need of some paintings that you yourself would like to ask for just contact me and I am sure we can work something out.

website where you can find all of my paintings, and works of art is as follows;
www.splashedoncanvas.carbonmade.com

Let's Talk Business!

OK here I will give a run through of what I do.

 I host different painting parties from kids birthday parties to just women or couples getting together to paint.
Instead of having to go some place to have to go and paint, I will come to you. I will entertain you all with a 1 or 2 hour painting class, where everyone will follow me step by step. Even if you have never painted before I can get you through the class with a pretty descent painting. And a time of relaxing, my motto is for the people painting to relax and enjoy!

I supply:
Canvas (you keep)
Table easels (to use)
Paint brushes (to use)
Acrylic Paint (to use) For kids and adults
Washable Paint (to use for kids if that's what parents prefer)
paper towels/napkins
paper plates
cups

What I would need from everyone is:
Table where everyone can sit and paint at
Water

I can also for children's parties offer some face painting, if you are interested in having a ladies night or a date night, or to throw one of your child's an awesome birthday bash follow the link below to my website.

http://splashedoncanvas.carbonmade.com/projects/4270961#1

Baby on the way? Or just want to vamp up a play room with a mural of some sort? I got you covered, Write me an email: damarisruiz87@gmail.com

New experiences

So today is the 10 of February, and I have not posted a blog in forever just because I had forgotten about it till recently. I would like to quickly give an update...

I got married on the 11 of August of 2012, were I married the man of my dreams. 
It turned out to be a beautiful wedding, and one that I am proud of and happy about. Everything or shall I say almost everything turned out the way I had hoped for. Only two mistakes that I can think of, but no biggies. Our honeymoon was super sweet and relaxing, where we went on vacation to the Florida Keys, we were able to visit different areas in the keys which was so much fun. Going all the way to Key west, Key largo, and Marathon which is where we stayed. We enjoyed some good snorkeling,sunset cruise, and some great sea food. A vacation that I think will be made again.

I am now going on to 6 months of being married, and let me say that it is quite some getting used to. Getting used to the way the other person lives is a huge deal. But it is well worth it. I am very much in love with my husband, and am enjoying my new life as a married woman. True some times I get annoyed with the things the hubby does, but then again what girl does not. Thank God he is at the center of our lives to make things that much more worth while and for giving us the patience. 

In the past year many things happened, I graduated college with a BFA, and obtained a job as an ELL Teacher working for Head Start. I enjoy my job, but I really would love to keep up with the business that I was trying to start up. 

So as of now that is the latest and I will be blogging again soon till next time, this was an update with dreal!